the truth behind all lies

2008-11-10T15:14:00.002+08:00

hi everyone!this will be the end of it.
No not my life well maybe part of my life.
im moving on to the new chapter.Thank you again
for reading my blog.
cheers!

p/s: moved to somewhere new.

2008-10-04T22:09:00.006+08:00

hi world.
besides performing prayers and reciting yassin,
mama,sis and i sat on the sofa for the whole day,not uttering a word.

i dont know about them,
but my mind was like a video player.
rewinding the moments i had with this someone special.

if you are close to me,you will know how
my relationship with him is.
i thought he didnt care about me.
maybe it was because we rarely spoke a word to each other.
but actually i know he cares.

i've always wished we could play soccer together
like any other fathers and sons does.
but we never did.
i was sad when we never had that kind of experience.
but then like i said,i kept rewinding the past we had,
i did had this similar experience with him before!
i still remember he taught me how to play golf.
he even brought me to this golf course in Malacca.
he scolded me because i was "joy-riding" the buggy.
i think i was about 6 years old back then.
i smiled to myself.
at least i did have this kind of memories.

me and him never have that heart to heart talks.
in fact i've never share anything with him.
i wish i can share my problems with him,
but that communication barrier was so deep between us.
i mean,every sons will always want to share their problems with their dad
since dads have experienced what the sons are doing.
yeah,i wish could to.
i never had the chance.

who would have known,
the songkok he gave me just days before raya
was his last gift for me?
well,i think he wanted to remind me not to miss prayers.
it made me realised.
he was concern about me,
i know he loves me....
but it was just hard for us.
and he was a good man!

he was so proud of me,
sometimes i feel a bit embarrassing when he was boasting about how successful i am
to the relatives even though i am only pursuing my diploma.
yes indeed,he was so proud he had a son like me.

but i didn see that back then,
all i could see was that this person
didn do enough to shower me with love and concern.
i took things for granted.

only after him passing on,
i realised all this.
he did his part as a father.
he did give me what i wanted.
he did care about me and most importantly
he did love me as a father.

im sorry papa,
i did alot of sins behind your back.
little i know,
first day of syawal ,was the last day i had with you.
im glad i managed to kneel down and ask for forgiveness
for all my wrongdoings towards you.
i forgive you too papa..

but what i really regret in my entire life
is not saying "i love you" to you papa............
now,i'll never going to have that chance.
i will never forgive myself for that papa.
i am very sure you wanted that from me.
im sorry.

my dear friends,
if you are reading this entry and your dad is there with you,
tell him you love him from the bottom of your heart.
dont put yourself in my position.

i know i never showed you that i care for you
but in the bottom of my heart i really do.
and i really regret for not showing the love that
you need!

it is tad too late,
if i had the time machine,
i would have did the opposite cos i really love you!
syawal will never be the same.

papa,
aku amat sayang kan kamu,
jasa baikmu dan kenangan yang kami kongsi
tidak akan aku lupakan.
you was,and you will forever be my papa!
i love you.

dont worry my friends,
i am picking myself up,it was just so sudden.
i promise i will get well.
im sure he want me to be strong like he was.
as the man of the family,
i have to be strong.
i vowed to take care of my mum and sis.

lastly,
i would like to send my utmost sincerest gratitude
to all my friends and loved ones....
your care and concern during this period of time
are being cherished by me.
regardless of any mode communicating or those who came over
just to visit me,
it touched me and thats all i need.

sekali lagi,
aku mengaharap kaum muslimin dan muslimat
untuk sedekah kan surah Al-fateha dengan seikhlas hatimu kepada
arwah ayahku,
Allahyarham Abu Alias Abdul Majid bin Ibrahim.

sekian terima kasih,
moga jasa baik mu
di rahmati Allah.
Amin.

2008-10-01T01:36:00.010+08:00

hello hello hello!
since hari raya is here,
we decided to wash and polish our cars.
yeah in the wee hours.
hahaha,
orang giler jek polish kereta at 3am.

afiq's matrix

lili's WR.

my newly pimped ride.
feeling2 pimp my ride or whatt!

since we were in the hari raya mood,
we decided to play fire crackers at bloody
3 in the morning.
hahaha,obviously we were so out of our mind.
heh!

thanks to everybody helped out with the washing and polishing
of the cars.(arfa,afiq and lili).
thanks eh doks

heee..
i received a card raya!
from who else la kan..
hahaha,ahem2..
understand understood ok?
it was lovely and im still reading it now.

its malam raya,
this was what me and the girlfriend did.
entertaining to each other nonsensical antics.
like the crappy pantuns that we shared.
HAHAHA!

obviously i was excited for raya!

ok ok,
i shall take this opportunity to seek forgiveness
from everybody that came in contact with me physically or mentally.(mentally or whatt!)
im a human,im not perfect,so all the moments that i hurt you,
i hope you'll forgive me :(

ok i think i shall sleep now,
or i will miss the solat aidilfitri 2moro!
(every year pegi sorang)
hahaha,emo ke member???!!
hahahahaha!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

p/s: "thanks for being a sweetheart." <3

2008-09-27T14:21:00.016+08:00

guess the F1 fever struck me real bad!
after "working" the whole day,
i got a ticket to catch the practice session.
Thanks to Afiq and his classmate.
wohooo!

we got the walkabout pass.
i think it is more worth it to walk around the circuit rather than
seating on the stands.

oh!
if you are going to the event,
i'll advise you to buy the earplug at the entrance!
dont be stubborn like me!
just donate $2 for it,
anyway its for charity too!
the sound of the car was so loud,that my ear drum hurt like
fuck.Seriously like fuck.

we came across the merchandise stall.
i wanted to buy the Ferrari's jersey.
but then as expected,
it cost a bomb.

when the night falls,
the partayyy got started.

well at this turn,
there was a crash.
i guess it was Mark Webber's car,
the driver for Team Red Bull.

haha,thanks eh fiq!

i was there when Kimi Raikonnen drove his first lap
in Singapore!
historic moment mann!

We met Fadly who was working there too
for some catering company.
haha,and he smuggled for us some drinks.
hohohoh!

this is the paddock entrance aka the entrance to the pit.
mann,i was that close to meet the drivers in action!
shite!

as you can see,
i put on my mp3 and blasted any kind of music
to soften my eardrums.
hahahaha!

below is a video recorded that night,
haha,turn on the volume to its maximum and
hear yourself,how loud the sound of the car is.
basically i was just 2 metres from the action.

fast forward to 01:40
if you are a Ferrari's fan like me.

thanks to the Verse for the camera.
and to the rest for the night.
i am so proud i was there
to witness all this happen.
it was a dream come true night.

to the girlfriend,
it will be great if you was there with me eh?
haha,but never mind..
we can always go next year!
anyway,
i love you!

2008-09-26T09:38:00.023+08:00

hi!
guess what,i was "working" yesterday!
note the inverted commas.

where else if not for the Formula One event!
hhohohh..
oh did i tell you,
my pay was like $9/hr?

basically,it was a boring job.
i was bored to death and we were just doing nothing and get paid.
hahaha,how cool is that.

since we were fasting,
the temptations was so immense!
the humid weather and the smell of the fried chickens
fro Poppeye's wasnt a great help.
hahaha!
but yeah,we did manage to pull through.
*applause*

so since i was bored to death doing nothing.
i suggested we explore around the F1 circuit.
and my oh my did we took full use of our job.
haha,basically we sneaked up to the grandstand,the starting grid lines
and almost to the pit lane,but the security there was tight.
tskk!

these are some of the rides on display.
these are simply the Shit yo!

the security people was nice enough to let us in and caress the car.
caress or whatt!

hahah!oh yeah..
dont forget the girlsssss!

hhaha,suka eh arfa....!
hahaha.

then,the exploring begins.
me and hannan,
sneakily went pass the officials,
and went up to the grandstand by the starting lines.

the grandstand.

then the race track baby!

this was taken before the safety car rounds the circuit.
oh i thought the McClaren safety car was some slow -crap cars
but i was soooooo wrong.
imagine this,you're at the singapore flyer and you can hear these car
roar from the area near the Padang.
wow!i couldnt imagine when the real formula one cars start moving
today.

haha,we didn have the enough time to capture the image of the super fast safety cars.
but we have the video.
but aku malas nk upload.
hahaha!!

oh and yeah!
did i mention we met Ferrari's very own Kimi Raikonnen driving a buggy
and Fellippe Massa cycling around the track?

hahaha!
what a night.
hopefully,im working again later.
please please!!

p/s: get well soon baby!

2008-09-20T21:27:00.002+08:00

i guess this will
be the 12th week of saturday nights
i spent my time at home,alone.
hahaha!

its not that im the "in the scene people" (according to the girlfriend.)
but i rather spend my time outside
rather than rotting at home watching football alone.
hahaha,but then again i can go to Tarawih prayers
but hmm.............
setan setan.

no no.
i was drained out from soccer just now.
well,we had a match with some nyp graduates and their extended family
and boy did we played well.
that was the first time we played together since last year i think?
and i was fasting okay!!
so yeah that explained why am i not at the prayers now...
reasonssssss?

im not suppose to meet the girlfriend
for the weekend.
haha but guess we just have that special telepathy
to communicate eyy?
yes,i bumped to my girlfriend.
not many people can say that!
hahahhaha!she was with the brother.
that feeling of making my heart race
never fails when i get to see her.
corny?cant help it mann.

okay okay.
im done.
i got to fetch the queen of my heart aka the big momma
from work.
wahh pianggzzzzzz!

p/s: i cant it help but to think of you! oinks!

2008-09-17T22:05:00.030+08:00

hi!
im back.
from where?
i dont know!

hahaha!
the post will be filled with pictures.
cos i spent the nights with the two groups of lovely people.

friday night.
it was the babygirls.
babygirls or whattt?
haha..

we went to lestari.
and we ran from yishun to bottle tree park.
yes people,we ran!
whoever came out with the idea,
obviously,dosent know i was having a 3-month old tummy.
hahaha,gosh i was so full and they made me ran!
hahahaha,it was fun though!

babygirls.....or whatt!

zul and irah.

remembrance of the bloodBRUDD's toyol.

Bottle Tree Park

she certainly know how to express her emotions.
hahahaha!

hohoho!
what a night.
aweeee-some night i must say.

MONDAY!
it was with the bloodBRUDD.
as usual...
ALL HELL WAS UNLEASHED.
k ar bedek.
bulan puasa mana ada ni sume.

hahaha..
the theme colour was brown.
apparently some of us have colour-blindness syndrome
hahaha!

after the mind-boggling ohyapehyasom!
we decided on marina square.

i gotta give to you bro,
you are the official shaolin master!
hahaha.

then we settled down over at suntec.

bloodBRUDD and their other half.

Ridzwan and Erma

Ve and Pi Neng

Hakim and Shabrina

yours truly and the gorgeous girlfriend.

and then,
there were the gay moments.

you'll probably be cursing them,
at right about............................
now?

hahahaha!
ok seriously,
im loving the holy month.
thanks everybody for the pictures!
and the respective nights of course.

ouh i forgot.
if you see this girl,
can you tell her,
her boyfriend love her soo dearly?
yeah thanks!

heh!

2008-09-12T08:49:00.004+08:00

so most of you know who she is,
so there's not a need for me introduce her anymore.
she's someone that i can relate everything to.
she's someone that i think off when i open my eyes every morning.
she's someone special that i cant help but to fall in love with.

080908

ok i wont want to go on with the details about the date.
heh.
just for the record, i had the loveliest night.
she surprised me with all the sweetest gift
one could ever get.
(someone teared up..hee)

i want to thank to many people
for making these two people have their hearts tied as one.(woah cheesyy..)
well really really,
i owe them soo much.

people like babygirls,(babygirls or whattt!)
yeah for introducing us especially irah eh.

arfa and the gang,
thanks eh dokss for listening to me.
and the bebual merepeks kat "terawe".

not forgetting the bros.
thanks mann for the support
and the encouraging words.

ok im done.
thank you!

2008-09-09T23:48:00.003+08:00

heh heh!
since she surprised me with an entry,
so why not
i do the same..

told you 080908
something beautiful will happen.
well it did.
i fell in love,
officially that is.

something that worth looking back
in a million years to come.
i had the loveliest time with you girl.
watching you teared up,
just made my heart so warm,
it melted.

thank you for the notebook
so i can write all my notes peacefully
since the scent of you is there.

thank you for the card,
so i can look back and realize how much i meant
to you,
but i know your love was more than a card with
all those captivating words.

here are my last few words,
i love you.

p/s: i'll be back with more updates soon. And i have so many people to thanks for.
i'll tell you more in my next post ok?

2008-09-08T06:47:00.002+08:00

its 645am and i dnnoe what to do.
maybe im excited for something?
hmm..i dont know.
if i sleep now,for sure im going to wake up at 12 pm,
and of course i have to skip school.

but i just cant.
heh!

good morning people!
i hope you will have a great day!
i hope mine will be tremendous.
*yawn*

2008-09-06T19:48:00.003+08:00

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you

I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant for me!

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

its an old song.
but it brings a whole another story to it,
a New beautiful love story that is.
hmm..

080908
looks like a nice date.
i hope it will be a beautiful night.

090908
is the pain-in-the-ass date.
cos' it is the the deadline
for me to submit my 2000 words report.

oh farhan,
they gave you the bloody 6 months
and you chose to do it on the very last 3 days of it!
kudos!

i shall update more once im done with my report.
that if i can finish it mann!

p/s: stop oinking away,ponti!

2008-08-31T23:35:00.004+08:00

"...Thank you for suddenly coming into my life,CHEY.
Haha,thank you for all your encouragements an such.Thank
you for all your merepeks-nonsense which made me laugh like siao.
Thank you for making an effort in doing things.You have been really
nice(and evil) and very sweet.Thank you for calling me at random because
those calls are always pleasant and surprising!..."

girl,do u still remember those words?
heh.
Well,i certainly do!

you're someone who made me melts
but at the same time made me giggly
like a silly little girl.

Thank you!
for everything.
really!

2008-08-31T22:37:00.024+08:00

wow.
lets just say,
i had a fantastic week!

im currently worn out.
i shall just let the pictures
do its wonders.

i went fishing on tuesday!

with this group of my friends.

arfayunmy.

cousin.

Luqman

khairin.

no comments eh fa!
hahaha!

bang bang!shakalaka bang bang!

nevertheless.
it was a wonderful trip.

i went to vivo with
irah,aizzul and azza..ahem ahem.
hahaha!

not many photos with me.
so sorry!

actually,im just posting this only.
hahahahah!

the weekend.
i was at the family's bungalow!
no no.!
i aint a rich brat.
my cousin got it for a retreat.

a Toyol can be seen in this photo.
(top left corner,with the peace sign.)

the only person that share the same mother and father
as me.

tribute to the sodomy charges.

this is so ghetto.

oh,after this pic was shot.
my cousin met in an accident with a car.
a minor one.
hahaha!(im not suppose to laugh,but it was hilarious)

this is what happened to the BMW 7 series!
i repeat,BMW 7 series!

the birthday-old-girl.
(before)

heh heh!
(after)

well done!

the abang abang lobangsss!

ok thats about it.
sorry.
im tired!

heheheeh!

2008-08-25T22:43:00.002+08:00

hello you!
you as in you!
the one who have this thoughts..
"when sia this guy want to blog"

yeah,
im here to enlighten you
with this updated post.
actually,
like most of other bloggers
who claim that they have nothing
to update..
sadly im not one of them.
im just the opposite.

i got so much to share,
till i dont know how to.
contradicting i know.

080808
was a nice date.
alot of things happened.
the olympics was on.
people were rushing to get married on this date.
so are the expecting mums.
forcing their babies to go out of their wombs
during this 24 hours.

for me?
well i was feeling content due to this date.
cos something wonderful happened
and it intrigue to the joy that i have now.

ok im done.
i promise i will up have a serious updates soon.
tomorrow im going fishing or whatt siols!
im fishing for mermaids!
wish me luck..
maciam fahammm!

p/s:hello paya lebar girl!

2008-08-16T00:46:00.008+08:00

hohoho!
Operation X: The surprise mini birthday celebration for Sheils!

Yuna,Arfa and me had this planned long ago,
but there were adjustments made.
heh

Everything went smooth and steady.
Yes it was my first time seeing her..
feeling awwwwwww-ed.
hahahaha!

The mini cake.

the birthday girl.

ouh yeah,Yuna was the mastermind too for the surprise.

Arfa.

one of the many shots that we took.

after having fun poking at the budak2 merepeks.
POO-GA DEY KAPEE!!!
hahahahaha!

so yeah Sheilss!!
this is for you!
may you have the wonderful moments ahead of you ok!
dont go buy ciggs ajek!(18 already whatt!)
be a good girl ok doks!
thanks for being a wonderful friend too!
gue jiwe lu doks!

hahaha!
oh and yah!,
hope you like the celebration and the gift
we gave you okaysss!
thanks to yuna too!!!
poo-ga dey!!!

2008-08-13T00:25:00.021+08:00

hi!
aku malas lah nak blog.
and aku kne upload banyak sangat photos.
ouh aku lupa ada org cina juga baca blog ini.
so hello people!
the past few days was great man!

national day was as usual.
fireworks mann!
i just have to catch the fireworks.
im soo addicted to it.
reminiscing the memories when i was young till now.
as usual,the same thoughts always played in my mind.
hahaha!emo or whatt!!!
whatt maybe?

haha,caught the fireworks with Ver,kim and kim's gf,Shab.
i dont have much photos.
kim yet to send me the pics!
oi aku masi tunggu eh!!
hahaha!

the airshow was awwwwwe-some!

especially this one,
the one the pilots changed direction at the very last minute.
like the stunt in pearl harbor!
"you go right,and i go left,right!"
hahaha,funny.
only those who frequently watched it will understand!
those who dont;noob?

kim and the vers.

no fireworks pics!
its kim's!

so we head to newton to have our supper.
Pi neng and ridzwan joined us.

sorry man.
i got carried away.

feel free to slap his face.

Pi neng .

ridzwan.he turned ill,
after consuming too much food.
hahaha.

TOYOL.

you can slap them too if if u bump into them
on the streets.

finally,

we headed back home.
indeed it was a great night!

so the semester just ended.
it happened too fast.
16 weeks gone in the speed of light.
*sings chris brown,Forever*
hahaha.
kental.

so this what happen
during the last few days of class.

mak cik sha whom i assume is bald.
kidding.

racist.
hahaha...
the malay people of neighbouring class.

makcik atika:Eh,farhan amek gamba buat peace sign k.
me:mampos sak dek ni.

menyampa i know.

she backed off,so yeah..
im the only person who acted cute.
*applause*.

we had pizzas.
for 2 days mind you.

see the guys at the back.
we were falling from the chair actually.
hhahaha!

thanks to my myanmar classmate.
he made me look like im some gayshit.
knn!

hahahaha!
stop it i know!

i can do it too!

hahaha!
wow,im just left with 3 more sems and im done.
that if i can pass luh!
PP havent finish siols!!!

ok dah!
to all the people who keeps yawning
when ure at this page,
I'VE UPDATED!

hahaha!
have fun people!

2008-08-04T22:42:00.004+08:00

skipping school will be the best moment in poly life.
agree?
uh huh..yes!
good girl.

its not the first time i skipped school,
but i felt i deserve the "off" days..
knowing that it wont affect so much of my GPA,
so why not!
we planned to complete our Professional Profiling(PP),
fat hope.
we never did.
mine is like a galaxy away to finish siolsss.

my partners in crime.

i had a ok-ok weekend.
it was like a whirlwind though.
i just wanna say sorry to Zafirah and Sue
for not talking much at Evonne's chalet.
seriously sorry.

i went to disappear halfway.
imagine this i puked..
yes i puked twice over at the chalet
not because of the food or what,

but i was really not feeling well.
its been ages since i vomited
and otw back home,
i didn talk to them at all,
cos halfway while driving,
i feel like puking...
but i control myself till i reached my carpark.
haha,disgusting i know!
sorry babes!

damn,i didn even to get a pic with my ex prefect mate,
who is now a FHM cover girl for last month issue.
shitzzz.

sorry to bloodBRUDD too,
i know this is some gayshit stuffs,
but i missed them.
i really couldnt make it last saturday,
i was puking like merlion siolss.
kk,lame.

im okay,i learnt to let go.

2008-08-03T16:45:00.000+08:00

well hello!

2008-07-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

what should i do now?
if you have the solution,
can i seek you please?

But the thing is,
i dont know what is the problem.
well,maybe that the issue here,
uncertainty.

you know
you come to that point of life,
where you have to break-free or weld yourself to the past.
that is what i am feeling right now.

everywhere or anywhere,
beings are feeling the pinch.
Be it doing something good or bad,
they got what they deserve,
Karma.

this saying will always be playing in my mind,
a great man,will have a great woman.
meaning to say,
you will always find your other half,
symmetrical to you.

I know it's wrong,because i'm ruining something good.

2008-07-21T23:34:00.012+08:00

hello hello hello!
there is just one thing that i am
looking forward too...

the arrival of President Nathan.
ahahah,yes!
i am really excited to see him.
he is on his way to come to my school now,
i guess so.
he should be here around 4 pm.
ouh yeah im in class..

speaking of class,
semester break are coming!
and guess what,
i still havent have some of my classmate's msn.
yeah,thats how not bonded we are.
but still i have fun in this class.
Really.

so yeah,
below are some pictures that we took along the way
while in class.
what you expect mann,
its RP.
you have to take pictures with your classmates!

CAMEROID ATTACK!

i didnt know i can look like a monkey.

i got white teeth!

the makcik makciks!
i think sha,(the girl in tudung) is botak!!!
ahaha,busted sia An..
heee.

the gayboys of E44Q?

ReyRoc and Farhan Stark?
kental sia!

still,we still have about 2 more weeks
left for school.
i really wanna go travelling
and unwind.

at long last,
my dream finally came true.
you can ask my closer friends,
i have been dreaming of riding a Scrambler
for all my life.
And i finally achieved it!

i was hanging out with my Sengkang Punggol fc mates,
lili and afiq on one of the nights!
And yeah it was lili's bike!

im not bragging,
i just wanna share my happiness with you!
ahahahah!
you may want to view the video.
if not,then its ok!

Its abit retarded.
i dont know why the need to show
the snapshot of it too..
just mind it ayte.

i promised myself,
im really getting a Scrambler.
i want to ride on dirt give my bike a mudbath.
hopefully by december!
so please pray for me!
ok An,
stop dreaming.

ok im blogging again
maybe tonight!
i gtg.
my faci is like giving the evil smile!
now my dreams of having an A grade just
smoked away...

2008-07-14T11:07:00.019+08:00

guess what.
im in class now.
im suppose to be listening to my friends' presentations
but yeah,
guess its ok to be rude at times.
they dont bother also.
huaahahaha!

my weekend was hectic mann!
how was yours?
bored?i guess..
ahhaa,pity you people.
ok im evil i know.

since its been over a month since
i saw the bros.
we finally did.
to reunite with ridzwan since he last enlisted for NS.

we only managed to meet at 10 pm
since everybody got stuffs going on.
and my curfew was like 12 am
ahahaa!
hey im not a loser ok who still have curfew!
cos' im staying at my uncle's house
so its like not nice if i were to go back home late.
ahaha,but who cares right.
i got home only at 3 plus.
but it hell worth it.

we went for late supper
and just hang out at places,
hohoho!

we had high consumption of food for a supper.
we just kept ordering,but
the food was okay.
not that impressive.

ok below are a few pics of us.
dont be shocked if you see ridzwan's
skin tone.
i was shocked myself.
he is now the mr Zimbabwe.
ahahahh!kidding

p/s: the pics are not cropped properly,i cant fix it too..Sorry!

at the makan place.

i think we took to many photos for a group of guys

even mat-rep calls us mat-rep!

and the hang out session continues...

gayboys.

you wont want to miss rubbing your hands on the sexy hair.

the catching up session was great mann
this sounds gay,but i really miss them!
hhohohoh!

ouh did i tell you guys,
i had a soccer competition the following morning!!!
with just 2 hours of sleep
i went for the competition.
luckily we played well,
but we failed to reach the semis.
phht!

ahahhaa!
ok this is random.
i think i found a new talent.
i think i can pimp a person hairstyle
heee...
check this out.

ahaha,thats arfa's new hairstyle.
if you know him,
his hair wasnt like that at all before.
so now,i think he will score a girl someday soon!
trust me.
so who's next?

macam faham sia!
ok ok...
i should really get back to class!
see ya!

2008-07-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

hello!
okay im sorry for the previous post.
im fine,really!
things just didnt turned out like i wanted.
well,you cant just get everything like in your life.
oh wellss..

i have a lot to say before i went to this page,
but now.....
im just staring at the screen.

give me a few moments please.......

well,let me just sum up about my week.
i had a-okay week.
theres ups and of course downs.
hmm...

A question once posted to me.
"what will you want to do after poly life?"
hmm..that caught me thinking for quite a bit.
actually,i already planned nicely what i want to do.
i also have my plan B okay!

After poly,for sure i will be called up for NS.
then i probably start working?
i dont know as what,but either i pursue my studies(which is so not going to happen)
or i start working....

after i save a lot of money,
i want to open a football academy for young boys and girls.
isnt it cool by making your career as your passion?
there will be like hundreds of girls and boys wearing jerseys
with the name of my football academy.
then i will see greens everywhere.
NO!not grass you idiot!
greens=money money money!
ok i dont care so much about money as long i am happy
and things i need are sufficient.
haa!

ok i just realize people,
i am so dreamy..
ahahaha,(i havent even complete year 2,nak mimpi2)
PP also havent do!
well,its ok to have dreams right.

"if you plan to fail,you fail to plan!"

wtf!
ok enough of the craps.

Sometimes i wonder..
how come life get so complicated?
i think its because of one mini mistake
and your whole life got distracted.
but then again,if life has got no mistakes,
you wont benefit anything,yes?

ahaha..
ok that was random
really man!
i think i came to that point of life,
where really should enjoy my life.
i intend to go backpacking with my buddies
or go for a holiday to chill.

my mum gave me the green light man!
how cool is that.
ok i know im a loser
i still asked my mum for permission to go travelling
at 19!!
who cares.
i wanna go australia!
i really want to try surfing.
just the cool waves,white beaches
oh yeah,dont forget the babes..
ahahaha!

ok maybe Australia is a bit far fetch
it will take me a year to save up
if i really wanna fly there!
anybody up for a bintan trip?
cool...

i still am still finding clues
what is the sole purpose of me blogging now.
hmm..

well,
im ending soon.

to whoever who calls me starky,
i really want to see you free from the chaotic and
troubled life of yours..
im doing my best to be there.

i hope everything are fine for you people!

cheers!

2008-07-04T23:08:00.003+08:00

hey,
im really sorry for abandoning this blog for
a quite a while.

so much things have been going on in my life.
but come to think of it,it was only a few,
but it had a major impact in my life.

Now,i don't know what i should do.
its hard,really.
deep inside it was suffocating
but either ways it will kill me
momentarily.

the thoughts of you were excruciating .
but im left with no other choice,
stubborn is the word to describe
how i feel.

I am really leaving the course of my life
to the great Almighty.
I mean why would i chase what i want
when in the end,
it is really not meant to be mine.

I may be a jerk,
or i should say i am right now?
i've lost friends and i have even
published a bad impressions on people,
who dont even know me.
i deserved it.

A big thank-yous
to people that is around me
and have been giving encouraging advices/words.
you know who you are.

p/s:the post was a bit on the downside,i am sorry for that.Well,that's how my life is ,at this point of my life.
Thank you!

2008-06-30T23:26:00.001+08:00

you are like the sun in my summer
the light through my darkness

2008-06-11T22:02:00.026+08:00

since bro Ridzwan is going to be enlisted soon
we had bbq session for his farewell.
its a happy one!

here are the pics!

focus on ridzwan's face and where his hand was!

great bunch of people.

didi and nad

pi neng and siti

"yummay food coming right up!"

pi neng and the coolest guy on earth,NOT!

bro and erma

makan time

the hungry ghost.

cracking up as usual

cakes for the army boy.

as i smiled in despair...
hmmm...............................................................................

hahaha!d,i already put up your prettaye pic!
(hidong maintain eh)

gayshit?yes!
ouh thats hot dog in kim's mouth.

its white grape juice!
we are a true muslim.
remember that!

after the girls left,
we had soccer session at the stroke of midnight!
yeah soccer at ECP!
how cool is that.

so we wanted to spooke ourself by listening
to "misteri jam 12"...
we thought it gonaa scare the shit out of ourselves
instead we were laughing at how the caller were sharing the story.
hahaha!

ok so all 6 of us wanted to play truth or dare
in the end we fell asleep and snoring away...
weak ar!

so,rise and shine!
we decided to snap some pics
so how many guys can actually say,
they took picture with their clique's name engraved on the sand?

the bond that ties all differences

bloodBRUDD Ridzwan a.k.a sliteyed-freak

bloodBRUDD Ismail a.k.a the BUEH king!

bloodBRUDD Hakim a.k.a KIM PAH

bloodBRUDD Muhaimin a.k.a the MIIIIIIIINNNNNNN!

bloodBRUDD Aizudin a.ka the VERS

lastly,the coolest one of the yangan....

yours truly.....

well,i sure had a great ball of time
but it will be better if someone was there..
thanks everybody for turning up and making the pit
a great balls of time!

this for you bro!
wish you all the best man while
serving the nation!
i know its not your choice
but hey,thats life for you dude.
and yeah thanks for being there for me all the time!
take care!

2008-05-31T10:55:00.016+08:00

so its been long enough for me to alienate this blog.
here am i doing something to it.
let me start by a horror incident i faced a week ago!

i decided to cut my hair since its so messy and very troublesome mann!
oh no no!let me change and reitarate what i said,
i decided to TRIM my hair.

so there i was waiting for my turn
to let the barber do his job.
i rarely goes to that barber cos barber talks alot of crap.Agree?
yeah,since i was really cash-strapped,
im left with no choice.

my oh my!
i think that was my biggest regret of the year for going to that barber.
INSTEAD OF TRIMMING MY HAIR!HE WENT TO SHAVE MY HAIR!
well not the whole thing,i mean the sides.
*middle finger*
thanks to him,
i look like a primary one kid!
well im never going to that barber again.
i recommend you, my friends not to!
im not going to tell you where the barber is
but i think it is located at errrrr..
woodland mart?
ooopsss!

so these are just outdated yet new pictures,
contradicting i know..
haa,nehh mind

see how miserable i was..

the girl who couldnt stop laughing
when she saw my hair.

i sucks,i know.

posing with the pool's star players?
NOT!

soon after,
everybody starts wearing the cap..

hmm..mat-rep wannabe?

the-ever-adorable-arini!

the real abu bakar junior.

hahaaa!
i purposely post this picture so i know how
pathetic i look after i went to the
****ing barber!!

so a week ago we had a match,
our opponents were some china men...
i think soo..
their accent were different
so i assumed they were foreign...

team talk.

my personal favourite!

skipped past one,two..

and im off,dudes!

ok,stop oogling at my blardy hair!
thanks to who again?
that ****ing barber perhaps.

football is a funny thing.
they proved it right!

oh yeah!
THANKS TO ZAFIRAH AND YOHANIS FOR THE PICTURES!
kau nampak tak,aku give credits to korang.
ahaha!

im suppose to be enjoying my weekends
but it got hectic then i thought soo..
i only had 3 hours of sleep today,
:(((...

love,

its tough,i know..
but i realised we're tougher!

i love you

2008-05-11T23:59:00.006+08:00

here i am writing this post with pure anger and disappointment.
haha..not really.
oh my oh my!

i just caught monkchester united becoming champions!
oh why is this happening!
why!!why!!why!!
this sucks mann!

oh wells..
forget about it.

HAPPY MOMS DAY TO ALL MOMs OUT THERE!
esp to my MOMMA!
ahahaha!

so sis and i decided to head to far east
to celebrate the special day with our mom.
had nana thai..
yummay....
hope mom enjoyed her day!
hah.

happy mom's day!

oh yeah!
caught IRON MAN on saturday
with gf!!
omzg....!
it hell worth every single cent i spent on it mann!
to those who still havent caught up with it..
you're losers if you still sitting there still watching the trailer!
go get get your heavy asses to the cinema!

and for my soccer updates
you can click here..
hahaha!

i lost my wallet on friday!
damn it!
i think i suffered from STM.
i remembered entering the toilet,
placed my wallet on the sink..
and then,i remembered nothing!

omg!!
well,i think i lost/misplaced my wallet for a gazillion times i think.
i just need my wallet for my ic and my license!
the rest you can take it and sell on ebay!(haaha!...righhht!)
so there i was entering and combed the whole toilet like
sherlock holmes.(i seriously got no more phrase or adjectives to describe how the situation was)
i even went thru the rubbish bin in case some asswipes may just throw it away.

in the midst of searching and feeling crappy!
my classmate who was there to help me..
well he did nothing but snapping pictures on my reactions!
knn!

hahaha!
thanks ar!thanks ar!thanks ar!

oh yeah,
continue with the story,
during lesson time..
a group of students from nowhere just barge into my class!
i think about 15 of them if im not wrong!
and they go..

"who is muhammad farhan bin abu errrr errr...!!"

ahahaha!
obviously it was me they looking for.
and yeah like you guys predicted!
they found my wallet!
yay!
hohoho,everything was intact.
i dont know which class were they from!
so this for you people mann!
THANKS A LOT!

ok ok!
im better off to sleep!
i have school in about 8 hours time!
gahhhh!!!

good night you stinky people!

2008-05-04T13:41:00.006+08:00

everytime i did something,

there was only one thing on my mind,

you.

2008-05-02T22:41:00.020+08:00

W-O-A-H!

hello hello hello hello!

ok i know,i saw the previous entry's date and this.

i get it,so stop whining...

sorry!

im sorry for not replying to the tags,

pls dn be disheartened from my action,

i always wanted to reply back the tag but...

it got more and more,that made me to ignore it

for a while.

nyeheh!

ok for this entry i shall make it as spontaneous and random

i can get.

something fresh is always a good start.

huh?

i shall just script down on what im thinking at this very moment ok?

hmm,dont you think the weather is getting soooooooooooo hot nowadays?

wake up guys!its global warming!!

pull out that charger from the socket! (i;ve left the charger on since the day i bought my new phone)
enough said,that was my past..heeh!
stop using aircon!Fan was a good invention,use it!

if not ask your mama to fan you with newspaper when you gg to sleep(reminds me when i was young,my mum used to fan me with the newspaper and also slapped me with it when i dont wanna sleep!)

so do your part people!

pheww!i feel like the president of UN for a moment.

ok,so these are the pics from ayer day.

ayer day is a lame ass term that was created from my beloved
group of friends,bloodBRUDD

Ayer day is when all of us came to rule the street by playing sexy football.

it usually happens on thursday night.

credits to kim!

a star eagerly looking on?Righhtttt..........

these are just a few pics..

there are other interesting photos that we took..

but i dont have them with me yet...

maybe i have..but i dn wanna upload it

heh!

on one saturday afternoon..
where my sis have to spoil the whole thing

i've to be back hm early to send my sis to work.

can you believe this!!i repeat on saturday afternoon!!!

ahaha...
so i brought gf for a short drive around..
she wanted to catch the sunset by the beach

but i was rushing for time..(thanks to sis again!)

soooo....

inside the car also can luh..

pimp-ed yaw!

just you and i and nothing else.

so im doing quite fine in sch..

i hope soo.

my class have been rather fun to be with..

but still the previous class was,i should say,"bonded"?

im handling quite well with the-redundant-modules.

chey cheyy..bragging!

see that wires..it sucks!

fortunately,i managed to do it myself.NOT!!!

thats Zhou mi,she helped alot.

shes from China.

ahem!

As you people know,

i've stop playing competitive football.

its a decision that i never wanna look back.

so im playing leisurely with a group of boys from my secondary school
no im not playing for the secondary boys,selenger!

we were all from the same secondary school.

its been a fun period of time playing for them.

we will be playing in this league soon.

you may want to click the link,"fushan" on the left.

it got all the reports of every match we played.

how cool is that!got reporter!

Fushan fc.

next are just random pics

of what happened after school!

so the group of us went for a talk.

it is in a lecture theater by the way ok!

dont think RP got no theatre.

and....

this girl can happily sleep her way through.

fortunately,shes my gf...

so i can snap her pics and let you nosey parker see..

heh!

revenge was sweetly avenged.

its a habit for us to have late lunch in school..

awww..... forever she will never finish the food!

always wear your helmet while eating with your gf..

cos you'll never know when shes killing you!

ahaha..kidding ok.

abg arfa kiter la kan..

where you gg dood,its the glass panel ahead of you

and dn forget the abang2 lobang.

so i guess the post wasnt that random at all..

eh wait!

SPECIAL SHOUTOUT FOR MY ONE AND ONLY IDOL,

DAVID BECKHAM!HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!(maciam faham!)

oh ya,and happy belated birthday to my secondary-friend-sister-lah-katakan,

noor fitri!

till then goodbye lovely people!

lets pray with me and hope MANCHESTER UNITED WILL LOSE BOTH CHAMPIONSHIP!

amin.

2008-04-08T22:07:00.024+08:00

Hi Hi Hi...
sooo before the school started
i had a class chalet over at loyang.
it was for sure helluva fun..

we had our supper first.

then....
when the security guard are out of sight......
we jumped into the pool!!
ouh it was 2am in the morning though..haa!

wohoo!

no no no!me and caleb has nothing going on!

hohoho..some retarded act pose,i guess.

soon after our splashing session,
it was close to 6 am then...

i was just trying to get my peaceful sleep..
but no!they have to wake me up..grrrrrrrrr!

we were suppose to take picture with the view of the sunset
but it turn out,the sunset was behind the camera!
ahaha!

so we walked to the macdonald to have our breakfast,
at this moment,most of us are half conscious...

but me........................

i cant take it anymore,i slept on the sofa..
where all you smelly ass have sat before!!!

well for not long..
this adorable-cute-little-boy or i should say "monster"....

come and disturbed my sleep!

he came with his mum...
and no,he is not one of our siblings or what..
but he is soo friendly...
well but not to seok hui..
he was terrified by her!

you see on the boy face,
he was terrified by this mad woman!ahaha...

now see the boy's expression..
he was soo delighted when he sees me..

hahaha..somebody made a tissue rose for him..

we emotionally disturbed ronald.

and we sexually disturbed a cow...

im not sure,if caleb's pants was wet after the shot was taken.
hmmmmmmmmmmm.

the morning will never be complete if there isnt a Taiji actions..

so after the breakfast..
i ran to my room and jumped onto my bed..
and locked the door,so nobody can disturb my sleep.
but SOMEHOW,JK entered the room and literally
pulled me in to join him go swimming..wth!
soon after ili and debbie joined.

and the girls was doing something so disturbing
i cant post all the shots here.
this is one of them...........

i dare not comment on this picture.

soo we had bbq after that..
thank god more people came..

hahaaha..they wasnt really bbq-ing..
they were just kaypo-ing and waiting for the food
to be cooked..

unlike me...i was the master head chef,NOT!!!!

so yeah,we played some drinking games..
as usual they are with their alcohol...
imma good muslim,i drank coke..
ahaa,its soo funny to see these people drunk...

they will go.."noo noo!im not drunk"
and they were swaying like some retarded zombie.
ahaha,i feel like slapping their face though.
nah,im not so evil.

just look at this!ahaha...

so seok hui have to do a dare..
well just to caress shi kang's chest..
it sound simple huh..

well......................
not till.....
youu see....

THIS!

hahaha,meet our wolverine!

yeah,thats W25J!
we sure had a great 6 months of our life.

so school started..
everybody was soo happy that they like their course and such.
well me?im just the opposite.

it was a big change..
suddenly all the engineering terms sounded like greek plus russian.
and did i tell you,my classmates are 98% foreigner!
i got nothing against them,its just soo competitive.
i was on the verge of running to the office and withdraw myself.
and then go where?
Tekong i guess..ahaha!
ok that was crap..

fortunately,girlfriend was there..
it was a great help dood!
ok i change..it was a great help sweets!

thank god,although my classmates are smart people,
they are never stingy abt sharing their knowledge.
im striving hard to make it thru!!

ok,im off to make my new passport!
why?because it was thrown into the washing machine
together with my laudry!
cooool....

2008-03-30T23:15:00.010+08:00

whats up!
again,yes again
i had a great weekend!

the paps and moms
were out of town..
so we as their wonderful and obedient
children..........................

spent the night out cruising around the Lion city!
ahahaha..
coming back home..
close to 5 am..

first up,
we crashed to my cousin's workplace at T3
basically,we just shoo-ed away the customers away
so we can help her close down the shop early...

the suspects

its so paisey,i tried running away.

deprived from the love of their parents

my-sister-and-she-is-acting-cute.

he is a speed demon!
ahaha,i was left with no choice but
to drive the same speed as him.

ok this is the craziest thing i did last night
driving while posing for a pic.
my mum gonna kill me if she see this!

so basicaally,
we went to esplanade,changi airport,changi village(the ever beautiful scenery to see man with fake boobs),kent ridge park,lim chu kang(yeah the cemetry!),kranji and the list goes on...

ok alright enough of it.

so today went to catch Vantage Point.
i kinda manipulated her mind to watch it.
ahaha..
well,its fair..because shes been bringing me watch all the girlie shows.
the rating for this movie is 8/10 mann!!
ok enough,i shall stop promoting.

had dinner by the river..
ahaha!no!not that candle light dinner!
ahaha..its long john's takeaway anyway!

you told me something that make me wander....

i cant stop laughing my ass off looking at her retarded face

camouflush-ed!

singapore's next retarded blogger!

special shoutout to arfa
happy 19th bro..

i just got the news.
im so sorry for your loss..

2008-03-28T11:29:00.005+08:00

hello.

im feeling a bit cranky right after i woke up.

it was like about 15 mins ago.

this post is largely out of the blue thoughts.

im a human too...

i have feelings,i will be a great liar if i

says im always happy and enjoying my life.

that is so not true.

some stuffs kept bothering me,

but i chose to ignore and walk away

cos' i felt it will make things better.

no,it isnt.

it may be beneficial to you people,but not me.

to dood number 1

i hope you are reading this blog mann.

i just wanna say im sorry

if your thoughts of me stealing your loved one keep creeping your mind.

the truth is,i didnt.

i never had an intention to do that.

the only person that i should feel bad,guilty and sorry for even till forever

is my close friend,who deserve better.
sometimes,karma is not my thing

but i know,somehow it will turn its back on me.

p/s: you had her,but you ran away.

to dood number 2!

mann,im pissed with you.

i hope you are reading this too,

or perhaps your love is reading this.

i mean whats your problem dude,

your wonderful colourful sportsman ego

just got over you eyy?

thus far,i thought i never ever offended you.

you got your wonderful fairy tale

and i got mine.

i respected you for who you are.

so i hope you do too...

dood number 1 and 2,

obviously,your typical sportsman egoist mind

have calculatively assumed on what a person i am.

you never ever talk to me before,

so dont assumed.

i apologised if my words are bit cutting-thru-your throats kind-a-thing..

that is all my thoughts on what the situation are right now.

ok enough of the dood shits...

i just want to tell the world,

i love arini,period.

my life with her is perfect.

like she said,

there will be no rainbow,if there's isnt a little bit of rain.

there will be sure some mofos who always have tendency

to be uneasy seeing people live happily.

sorry,

this entry is a bit on the negative side.

but heck now you people know whats the negative side

of my life..

im gg of for prayers.

its friday!!

to my beloved bro RIDZWAN!

i repeat,

IM GG FOR PRAYERS.

ITS FRIDAY!!

hahaha!

2008-03-24T10:52:00.021+08:00

hello!! hello!! hello!!
i just came back from my weekend getaway.
wait i lied.
it was a 5-day getaway from home.
so KL was our destination.

it was cousinly cousin affair.
no mommas and no paps.
its just us,the new bred of the generation.(wth..haa!)

our plan was just to shop with the never enough money we had.
i had a fun time but there was something that was not completed.. i just missed someone presence..
ahaha..who else?!
DUH!

so here are the pics and my write ups:

the lobby where we slept for 5 hours before checking in!

its been about 10 years or so since we had A&W,
we decided to head there for our dinner.
i had my first CONEY DOG.(pronounciation: koo-ni dawg)
i knoe it sounds wrong,thats what the crew said.ahahaha!

heree are the floats and the koo-ni dawg!

i dont know why must we stop in the middle of the road
and just snapped a picture of us and the head of the KL tower!!

ok guys!
the following pictures maybe disturbing to some of you.
if you have high-blood pressure,heart failure or even pregnant
i may suggest you to look away.why?
because i just bought a pair of quiksilver shades
and i got obsessed of wearing it!
warning was given!!!!

i warned you!

i just did warned you!!

train ride to shopping paradise

dont worry,we wont shame you singaporeans,
the reason we acted this way because there was nobody in the train.

all dressed up to hit the town but were sent back for underaged!
ahahaha!!thank god!!

gayboys.

ironically,we woke up at 7 am to jump into the pool!
ouh did i mention,my cousins will always wake up at 2pm or normal days?

so what would you do,if all the taxi divers
dont wanna pick you up because they refuse to charge you by the meter rate?
you vent your anger by taking pictures luh!!

from young till now,i swear to you
we still whack each others head with pillows.

yeaah you're right,i really got nothing to do.

petronas twin tower and I.

"Malaysia,truly asia!" (yah right.......................)

....................

now i look like kate winslet in the titanic while posing for the nude drawing.
dont you think so?hmmm..

so at 4 am,we had our supper..

finally,its time to leave KL.

so our mission to shop with our never enough money is completed.
i bought a lot of stuff till i dont know what did i bought........confused?yeah me too!
ok2 thats how my getaway was!

ok i miss that gorgeous girl who lives in yew tee!!
she took s'pore flyer without me!
ahahaha!
sidetracked!

bye!!!!

p/s:im minutes away from meeting miss nur arini suratman! woot woot!

2008-03-16T20:43:00.010+08:00

hellooooo crazy people!!!
i had a great weekend
do you?

so here it goes..
girlfriend and i decided to go on a picnic date.
where else no other than botanic garden yaw!!
we went there together once already
so memories flashed back again..

the pics coming right up!

she is soo obsessed with this pose.

i was aww-ed by the humongous BALL.

no dear it does not look like a dinosaur leg!

the talk that we never had

if you are an avid reader,you will recognise this picture somewhere.

her mas slamat wannabe..

i caugght this nasty naughty litle squirrel!

i wanted to prevent extinction,so i fed the fishes with green tea bread(or did i overfeed them?)

soo thats the wrap!

so after the long absence between us
we finally find the time
to sit down and really talk...
its been a while since we did that
oh my..it hell worth it!
i wished we can do this everyday..
but you and i know,we cant!

alright,
i'll finish this up with
a simple
i-love-you...
i truly do!

2008-03-12T09:58:00.003+08:00

err.....whats up everybody!!!
ok,im being very apologetic here for not updating
*guilty face*
im sorry!
well,its not that i dont wanna update or there's nothing special happen in my
daily life,heck everyday is special for me.
its because of this date 11 March 2008.
everyday i on my laptop and i see the calendar it drew nearer to that particular date.
it just made me anxious and nervous,i just cant think straight.
so thats the reason why i didnt update.Sorry!

oh i forgot!
11 march?it was my driving test dood!!
i had trouble sleeping few nights before the test.
i kept thinking what if i fail?what if the tester is a kanasai ah pek?hmmmmmmmm.
so on D-day i had a last session of driving with my instructor who talks nothing other
than MAS SLAMAT and his politics.Sometime,i just feel like telling him to run for president!hahaha..but then he is still a good driving instructor.
so he wished me good luck and im left alone in the waiting room.

"Muhammad Fah-man!"

inside my heart i laughed,which parent want to name their son Fahman
then the tester repeat the name again...

"Muhammad Fah-man bin Abooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!"
then i realised it was me!me!me!
see,all the negative thought i had was true.
i really got a kanasai tester!!!
i wanted to headbutt his nose for "perfectly" calling my name out infront of everybody!
but then i have to let his ass off since he is the boss.
ouh did i tell you,it was raining heavily!!thanks.

Alhamdulilah,that kanasai tester passed me.
and i went wohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!
ahaha...

so that particular night,my mum was soo kancheoooong
she want me to pick her up from work.
gosh did i made a mistake or what driving on the first day!
expressway was crazy,my mum not helping.
She's worst than my instructor.ahaha...but i still love ya mum!
thank god i made it alive home with my mum.ahahah!

ok enough of my driving shits..

so the night before D-day,
i went to chill with my classmates or i should say EX classmates,
debby,seok hui,jon and xerxes.
sooooo nice to seee these crayzeeeeeee people.
its been soo long since we met.
had dinner at far east and chill at starbucks.
well most of the time we were gossiping and just laugh!
ahaha!i had a helluva good time.
here a few pics..

cheeky horny ah peks (explaination of ah pek: chinese man).
So i wasnt one of them.period!

seok hui and debby auditioning for the shoot too!

ahaha!so as we were walking inside wheelock place,
the shops were all close.
we wanted to go to the toilet luh!
so as we were passing by mark and spencer's..

we saw this..

picture says: i love you,arini.

it was on one of the shutters

guess who wrote it?

me me me!it was like in january!

i was with bro,kim and siti waiting for erma to finish work

i wrote that!i wrote it cos i missed her..cheyy cheyyy!ahaa..

i couldnt believe it was still there!

ahaha..that explain they are not cleaning enough!

well i hope you dont clean it ok!!

man its been a week since i last saw her!

p/s : i miss you miss nur arini suratman!

2008-02-19T22:03:00.030+08:00

Happy 19th birthday,me!!

wohoo!
i had one of the greatest day!
i was soo happy that nothing can describe how i feel! (im contradicting myself)

so on the midnight of my birthday,
i was busy msn-ing and settling some stuffs
it was 12 am,its my special day.
just as i was about to close my eyes
the lights went off
and guess what!my whole family suprised me with a birthday cake!
haa!actually i already know your suprises i saw the cake in the fridge!
ahaha..selenger people!
mann!was i touched or what!
even my DAD was there and awake!
hehe..

no im not suporting man united..
i wore that jersey so that my drools will remain there forever!
eeeeeww!

meet the family (my dad!my dad!)

under one roof!

aww..sometimes its ok to be a momma boy!
thank you mum for bringing me into this big big world!
i know it was extremely hard to carry me for 9 months!
i know i was kicking,punching and headbutting you when i was in your tummy!
much more guiding me for 19 years!
i love you mum
and of course the rest of my family!!!
i really really appreciates it!

on the day of the b'dae
it was filled with surprises after suprises!

girlfriend suprised me by appearing at my place
with a flower and a cake? (flower??ahaha...i like!)
i was dumbofounded luh
i never tell her where i stay
well maybe i did,its just that im at another house..
haiyooo forget about it!soo complicating
i guess she did her own investigation
i blew candles again!
omg!seeing her panting like crazy (ouh she lost her way!duh!)
made me soo guilty but yet im soo greatful to have someone like her!

soo the plan for the day was............her plan!

"so where we going?" i asked

"err sentosa!" she replied!

omgoooonn!!
i was wearing this longsleeve shirt and jeans!!!
and the weather not helping!
ahaha!
but i just love every milisecond spent there!

for once i felt im in Baywatch!
ahahaha!!

haha!meet my Enigma!

you and me under that coconutless tree

having you by my side its a plus!

piggeey-dee-gee-dee-back!

meet my gorgeous girlfriend

meet the retarded birthdayboy!

look at girlfriend!
she got the "hello sexay" look!

boo!

this is what happen if you watch too much HEROES!

so she suprised me with a gift!
out of nowhere!
a tshirt!
a funny kick ass shirt that we were talking about!
she bought it on lineeeee!!
i was like it soo cool!
i was soo excited i just wore over it
despite the scorching hot sun blazing!

as she figured ouut!
it was kinda big!
but it still look nice!
so she got the plan B nicely prepared!

she gave me this pair of shoes!
designed by her close pal,Jane!
thanks babe!
i was like aww-struck mann!
she must have had a rough time doing all this!
i think the design is cute tho!
when i wear this shoe,im not acting cute ok!
i really love the shoes!
jealous??

girlfriend and her long lost husband,
his name is either moorthy or moosang.
im not quite sure.

Lim Ah Tan and I

i would recommend you to enlarge this picture
because this is the closest you can see her smilling with her teeth!

Bah-boo Singh and I

we are one hard-ass lovers

sometime you just gotta let something go..

so girlfriend and i badly wanna go for the Song of The Sea
soooo i contacted Insyirah since shes working there!
like omg!
she treating us for the entry!!

thank you sooo much babe!!
seriously thank you!we really enjoyed the show!

as expected the show was exhuberant

this is the most captivating scene!
mann! i love it!

before we reached her house
she suprised me with a short clip that she made by herself
i swear to you,right at that moment!
my heart just become sooo warm..
i guess i was melting inside..
ok this sounds gay.i was closed to tears..

(ouh the guy on the left,is our bodyguard)

after i sent her home
i looked up into the sky and i smiled
Alhamdulilah i said.

im blessed because why?
because i have sooooo manyy wonderfuulll people around me!

I wanna express my greatest sincerely gratitude
to people who made my special day the greatest one!
regardless you wish me thru any means or being there for me!
i love you all!

love,
thanks for the flower and cake
the shoes and the shirt
and for making every single second of 18 february 2008 a special one!
sincerely,i swear theres nothing in this whole wide world can compare to you!
i will never trade you for anything!

2008-02-15T17:44:00.017+08:00

wow...
its been a long absence man!
sorry for that!!

there i was surprising my love at her doorstep
with a red rose and a specially made card from yours truly..
i swear to god i was melting like a hot wax when i first
set my eyes on her..
she was way way wayyyyy gorgeous!!!

ahaha!
something unusual happened in the train.
there was this little boy and girl kept staring and giggling at us..
i bet they are siblings
so these two lil cheeky children did some cheeky whispering among themselves.
girlfrend and i was puzzling why weere they smilling at us..
THEN!
ahaha,they showered us with flying kisses and telling us we look soo lovely together.
omgaay..its soo overwhelming yet embarrasing man!
cheeky people....i should snap at their naughty cheeky little faces..!

caught up with girlfriend's bro performance over at far east.
damn they are just good and the songs they played are superb!
girlfriend was laughing her ass off when her bro did the back-up singing!
"dirrty little secrets...."ahahahahah!!

ok ok..
enough of me writing..
let picture do the follow-ups..

meet my perfect date

with something that made me blushed like crazy!
she suprised me with a list of 100 reasons on why she loves me!
ain't sharing with you all..
anw,you cant expect me to type it out for you people right!

meet her retarded date

with a rose and the special card!

i wrote her a poem tooo!!!!
you can click to enlarge if you dont mind the mushyness!

gorgeous + retarded

wohoo!
had dinner with bloodBRUDD and WAGS!
and yeah you can bet ur ass
more hell break loose..

nur arini bte suratman and muhd farhan bin abuuuuuuuuu!

ridzwan and erma

the verse and pi neng

siti and hakim

BB and WAGs

without our love ones..

we are just a bunch of gayboys..lol!

they too want to make a stand for themselves!

WAGs

before we got chased away by the security guard..
i bet the security guard was just jealous he got no date..boo!

soo at the construction site also can luh!
ahahaha!

thanks to you all peeps for making our
valentine a great one!!!!

but i want to specially express my gratitude

to my one and only love,ms nur arini bte suratman

for the wonderful valentine

for the 100 reasons

for the love you showered me for every single breaths of yours!

i love you!

2008-02-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

A tribute to w25J

meet my retarded class!

Calebamutha

we own the toilet!

told you so..

Check out that chick yo!

R-E-T-A-R-D-E-D

look at MJ..too much elephant porn..

i guess this is how we look in 40 years time..

the CHAIR!

one last pic with magdaline!

high on mahjong paper

nice way to get fresh air,dude!

UH-huh!

ahahahaha!!!!

A picture speak for itself

okay ili!!!we get what you trying to imply!

look at seok hui(far right)..soo semangat

and this is where the jumping start

coolness!

checkout the babe seating yo!

and newton food centre we goes!

What you want lah seok hui!

look at faizal,he was having that wheres-my-food face!

my laughing babes!

only we know what you all were laughing about

*burp*

they made it seems like we are a bunch of tourist..

xerxes with the babes..

and we jumped again!

even the lift was ours!

the cover page for the next issue of RP magazine.ahahaha!

aww!come on caleb..dont be sad!

aniza and deb

our last lunch

Amooo..dont act sexy here can!

siti stop blowing anymore..there isnt any bubbles luh!

i shall not comment on what the girls are doing.

Xerxes,the sexy boy..(you will know later why i call him sexy)

A--G--A--I--N!!

look at debby and ili(ladies in white)..ahahaha!

this is why i call xerxes sexy!unfortunately,his gay partner is my facilitator!
wait wait,another gay couple seems jealous(far left)..

finally,W25J!

to w25j,

ok this may sound gay because it is coming out from my thoughts

i wanted to say you all that i really love you all!like literally!

you all are like my brothers and sisters in school

one of the reason i went to school for

all the laughters and funny great moments will always be treasured by me

be sad no more ok guys!

make sure everybody attend the chalet!

don't pang seh again!!!

till then,

i meet up with you all pretty soon ayte!

2008-01-27T16:22:00.000+08:00

alright first up...
million of apologies for not blogging
im just very busy..
busy with what?hmmmm...
i dont know myself..

on that saturday afternoon....

the botanic love garden..

im in love with the monitor lizard for that second

but im in love with this girl from the very second i saw her.

when we lost our way

when the timer was playing a trick on us

i am very sure we will find our way together to live happily ever after.

hehehe!
i love you,my miss clown!

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ok here come the funny sh*ts..
ahahah!
im already laughing my ass off!
im very sure im gonna get my ass kick
after these people read this post.

*breathe*

recently,the 3 bros of bloodBRUDD
turned 19..
and thanks to bro Hakim and Friendster for the photos

8th january - The Verse.
15th january - Muhaimin.
22nd january - Ridzwan.

here are some of the NOW and THEN
photos of them..

sorry to disappoint you peeps,i dont have any pic of muhaimin!
damn!

nevertheless,lets look on the bright side of life!!

*THEN*

awww...look at the cute little THE VERSE!
hahaha!

*NOW*

ahaha!all grown up!
handome and macho!

next up!

bro!

(warning!this may make you laugh your ass off!)

*THEN*

aww..look at my beloved bro ridzwan,soo *insertthewordtodescribethisphoto*

*NOW*

aww..now he is the eye candy to all the girls(i just lied!!!)

cool and suave!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY,BROs!

2008-01-14T20:04:00.000+08:00

and the fairy tale continues....

the scary movie that isnt scary at all

that night when i keep staring into your eyes

and we look retarded together

finally,i found the princess in my fairy tale..

im sorry if my posts is all mushy and all

i just cant help it

im in love yaw!!

and girlfriend,

i think the whole world agree not only me

look retarded..

*look below picture*

hahaa..

thats about it..

take care everybody!!

2008-01-12T13:58:00.000+08:00

hello hello!

so school have started..

and im enjoying myself in school!

hahaah!weird eyy...

so Body #19!!!

it's a thai movie that is!!

girlfriend got pissed with the

2008-01-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

A new chapter begins...

for once,
i thought i can never find the sun
i was blinded by this darkness
i'll search no more,cos' i found one

for once,
my heart and soul was in a whirl
its all settle now,
cos i found that special girl

for you,
this is aint illusion
someday i will prove to you
that i love you a million.

yes world,
im officially in love with this girl,
Nur Arini Bte Suratman!

2008-01-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

wohoo!!

a brand new year!

a brand new chapter of my life!

fortunately,the first chapter of it seems so wonderful!

why??

because i spent the first few seconds of it with people so dear to me!!

so started the day to accompany my mum to the hospital

with my k.p.o sis actually!haa

my mum had to go for a check-up

shes having an op on her eye soon!

hope things goes well,man..

i met arineeeeeeeee!

and she was late.!!

how cool is that..shes late!

so yeah..

we practically combed the whole of town area!

from orchard to city hall till raffles place!

I had my first SALAD meal!!

curiosity came crawling into my brain cell

so i decided to try it..

we got ourselves the same thing only hers is chicken salad..

i got shrimp!!!

so for once,i felt like a cow..

feeding on grasses,hahaha!

so as we were walking

we felt kinda pity for the people who were working

come on,its new year eve yaw!

so like she said salad makes people go goo-goo!

we pathetically going to the face of this working peeps

and go "awwwwwwwwwwwwwww!"

ahaha,i got carried away..

i almost wanted to say it to the police officers!

ahaha!

after some shoving and pushing

we got to a spot for the fireworks!

but still not where i wanted to be..

still it worth it since

i got to catch it with some great company!

met up with bloodBRUDD!

how cool is that..

catch-ups bit with bros!

their spouses was there too..

it was quite late too

so we went our separate ways..

to sum it all,i had a great night

well i should say a special-great-night!

woop-pee-doo!

i feel like im on top of the world

but yet i may just be smacked flat to the surface of earth again

i feel special

because you made my sorrows vanish in the rain

p/s: promise me your happiness is the priority?

2007-12-25T13:51:00.000+08:00

sorry again for not blogging for quite sometime!
im kinda busy
hmmm...very busy
so lets get started..

last night i had a date..hmmmm
with arfa and arini!
huhuhu..a movie date that is
i badly wanted to watch National Treasure cos i felt
the previous one is superb!
so again,there was a lot of disagreement!
esp that girl..yeah that girl who badly wanna watch that mundane I AM LEGEND!
ahaha..
in the end everybody agreed on national treasure!
sorry to arfa who had to watch twice because of us.!
just like what i predicted the movie is fantastic!
bla bla bla..
arfa still not that high and crazy self..
nvm,its ok..understood

so taa-daa..

he's smilling!like finaally

this is the girl who wanna watch mundane I AM LEGEND

wait i haven finish..did i tell you that someone walked very wobbly the whole night

because she bought the shoe which turned to be the wrong size?

so on 21st december 2007!

i know its kinda gay to say this

but it was BLOODbrudd DAY!

*EVERYBODY GOES YAY!*

ahaha..

it is a celeberation to mark our brotherhood since long time ago

eh wait,since last year i meant.

so we had a bbq session over at ECP!

well,let me tell you something

we went there unprepared!

ahaha..boys!

we bought all the necessary stuffs on the day it self..

and we left out so many things.

like the most basic things like cups,plates and yah!that thong!

hmm...so the series of unfortunate event started when we reached parkway parade

it was raining heavily.

and there we were walking at ecp all drenched!

with all the charcoals and stuffs

i was wondering to myself if we ever gonna bbq since the charcoal was wet!

so when we saw the first pit,it was NUMBER 21!!!

oh yah i forgot to tell you our pit was like NUMBER 56!!!!

its like another end of ECP!!!!ahahaha!

we were still determined to carry on walking

in the heavy storm,that is..

after dragging our feet for abt a few km,

we saw a large plain field by the beach

and *poof* everybody threw their bags aside

and started running like budak kampong..

ahaha,we decided to kick around some sexy football!

we were so happy we totally forget that our pit is about a galaxy away!

ahaha,then another unfortunate yet funny incident occured

i was so excited i swear i accidentally kicked the ball so hard

it flew into the sea!booo!!the current was strong and it engulfed the ball away from us

bro wanna act hero trying to dive in to the sea..*it never happen!*

ahaha,we ran to the jetty..everybody was panic!

i sacrifice my sweater,my dad's that is to pull the ball 2wards us..

it came to no avail..

we borrowed an umbrella from this fisherman and finally!

we got the ball back!(anw,we bought that new soccer ball on that day itself too!)

so we continued our quest to our pit!

imagine we reached at Ecp abt 5pm

and we reached our pit at about 8 freaking PM!

ahaha!

but without a doubt our spirits are flying high!

we were laughing around and having a good time man!

after the bbq session,

we played truth or dare or i should say truth or truth?

ahaha..all the secrets are leaked out

but then again its within BLOODbrudd boundaries only.

done with that,we chatted about stuffs!

and you know what we werent chatting about girls or ghost!

we were discussing about religious stuffs!

im serious!ahahaha...

stuffs like..haiya..nvm i dn wanna get so holy here..haha!

about 1 am plus,we went for our night trail

somebody said bedok jetty was spooky!

so we check it out and it was baaawwwwring!

crowded with a lot of fisherman!

so we continued and continued walkin till i think

we reached the area near changi there?

we were exhausted,we lied down on the middle of the road

ahhaha...we literally did that!

*yawn*

we went back to our pit,

the bros was playing their crazy soccer game,

i sneakily tip-toeing my way to the empty tent and rest..oops i fell asleeep actually

it was about 630 am also..so im not a spoiler ok!i stayed up!

so yeah we headed back home!

here are the idiotic pics we took!

mind the quality,we were all so retarded

nobody brought a camera!

i told you our pit is like NUMBER 56!!!!!

there they are with their seriously gaysh*t pose!

kim and the verse with the brokeback mountain face!

yum yum!

the BBQ session

ismail here fanning himself..

anw,fortuanately for us..the charcoal was put to good use!

as you can see there are no plates and cups!!!!!!

it is worse than my school camp!

the best of bros

*the bond that ties all difereences*

any,it was a helluva great time spending time with them

it was worth all the unfortunate events!

ok..sorry about the long post!

im so lazy to separate the post!

till then,,

MERRY CHRISTMAS,EVERYONE!

HO! HO! HO!

2007-12-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

hahaha!!
im blogging right now because i promised someone to update..*sigh*
ahaha..kidding
ok i know you people are waiting for an apology from me
for not updating!
ahahaha!
anw,who cares right!huuhuhu!

so on one of the tuesdays
after i had my lunch when ai ni called me.
she was feeling down and i can hear her sobbing..
she was having a big dispute with her bf..
so superhero farhan came to the rescue!
ahaha..
so i left the lesson halfway to meet her at somerset.
its worth the grade that i was given.
what are friends for right??right?
i flew there cause i was worried for her
ok wait i was exaggarating,i took train anyways..
i can see her face filled with sorrowness.
so yeah she shared with me what really happened
oh yah her friend syamila was there too!
anyway cheer up ayte girl,
you know i will be there for you!cheyy cheyy!!

so i have been spending school days with these 2 wonderful people...

that night! (you know i know!)

the night when the school library is ours

there are many more pictures that we took but i seems to be lazy to upload it.
ahaha!
so we covered alot of places in singapore after schoool!
ahaha..so free right?
yah i agreed on this man!
anyways they are a great company to be with!
oh i forget to introduce them..nyiahaaa!
thats arfayunmy bin abu bakar and nur arini binte suratman! (eh correct or not your names?)

sooo today!
since ai ni couldnt be there to celebrate with her bf on his result
we catched a movie and also to get my oh-yum-yum cookies from her
i waited for abt 2 weeks to get my hands on them!booo!!!ahaha!
it was Alvin and the Chipmunks!
ahaha..man,if only i have them as my pets!
i will create massacre together with them in my house!
they are so cool and cute.
ok i shall stop showing my feminine side by bragging how cute they are.!
so as the movie was screening,she was complaining she cant see!
like omggg!!the screen so humongous also cannot see!
i offered her my specs to her!
and as usual she will wear the specs the other way round.
sooo s-e-l-e-n-g-e!
bottomline it was an ok-movie!
we had our lunch at the open air foodcourt
she is such a noob she didn know thata foodcourt exist there!
nvm i understand!
we head to the library i dont know for what
since it was raining.
she decided to play minesweeper despite
that she really sucks at that!oops!
ahaha!

i had a blast with her sharing stories and stuffs
and yeah we took pictures!
i got to give credits to her photography skills man!
im a fan of her work already.
check this out..

we were at esplanade librabry
and she took this shot..
i just like this shot man!!

this is another one of my favourite!

this was the last shot of the day
my personal favourite!
anyway,the day ended just like how it started!
i really had a wonderful seconds with you!
from the moment we met till our bids for goodbye!
p/s:the cookies is so addictive!i finished it in 20 mins!yum yum!
and yes lastly!
my dearest BLOODbrudd a.k.a BLOODshit!
ahaha!
its been a long time since we gathered together to create chaos
21st december is the day bros!
jgn bueh eh!!!
ahahaha!!
bro,take care man!i heard you are sick..
malas ar aku nak upload muka korg!
ahahaha..

to farhanah binte saleh
i hope you will rest at home
and recuperate completely.
once done you can go to work as you wish too
take care ayte!

ok im done!!
finally!

2007-11-30T20:38:00.000+08:00

i shall let the pictures to do the talking yaw!

well i lied,i'll do some write-up for you people!

im sorry to all manchester united HATERS,i was

forced to wear that piece of black cloth..

ok so on one of the fridays...

we had a class outing cause my facilitator wanted to treat us a movie

so here it goes....

the crazy babes

the hunks

ahaha!!

WARNING:UNCLE LOVES THE CAMERA!

see the gap between MJ and the lady?

now you know why there is a gap?

dont blame me for not warning you,Uncle really loves the camera!

this what was left after some people pang seh us!

hahaha!

a night out to town with another crazy people!

so yeah

i wanted to write something

but it slipped my mind,

hmmm...

oh yah i remembered it now!

i was just wanted to say that..
i got nothing else to blog!

so yeah....

*come say it with me*

h-a-p-p-y w-a-i-t-i-n-g!

2007-11-28T23:44:00.000+08:00

where did i go wrong?
i should have told you from the start
i feel closer even we're apart
i was living in my own world
the thoughts of you?
it brought dents to my heart

did i ever did the right thing?
i should have known your heart
but girl,
you cant blame me
im no astrologist nor mentalist
i cant figure out the shattered heart of yours

was i a foot late?
whispers keep playing in my ears
telling you are the one,
i wasnt taking notice of it,
thinking you found the knight that saved you
my heart sunk,
i admit defeat in despair!

the truth is,
i swear i thought you wanted to erase
every miliseconds that you had with me,
i swear when i was remisnicing about us
it sure made my my heart goes intoxicated.

now,
it wont be the same anymore
you decided to give your knight a chance to have your affections
i'll bow-down for your decision.
there's nothing in this world
that i can think of to hold this stupidity
other than myself.

till then,
i wont have much of a choice
but to wish you all the best in your fairy tale story.

-yours truly

2007-11-18T22:18:00.001+08:00

believe it im back here again blogging!
well i really got nothing to write about...
ok maybe there is.

firstly,this may be my last time updating my blog
in this messed-up,dull-coloured,but pleasant-scented dungeon
which i called "my room".
yeah,im moving out folks!
to somewhere where i am not fond of.
no,its not because the place is not my flavour
im fine with anything,even if you want me to live in the cave with !kung bushmen
i would!but does !kung bushmen lives in caves?hmmmmmmm
its just that i rather stay somewhere where my life is not crowded.
well i have to make do with it.
things happened for a reason dont they?

so just like every sunday morning
i will drag my sleeping time till evening
yes evening!you cant blame me,im all worn out from the week,
but today was different.

it started out.....

"ANNNNNNN!!!!,WAKE UP!!!!!"

ok wait,its in malay actually,so pandai pandai luh.

only then i realised my mum wasnt working.
she decided to stay at home to pack things up.
so yeah she was being the supervisor of a company
only that it is a house.
as i was ransacking my room,
yeah ransack is the correct adjective to describe what i did to my room.
i litterally threw all the junks and craps to the ground.
and i came across a box.
that box holds many things that is so dear to me.
i opened it and the memories flashback like it only happened a day ago.
well i realise i shouldnt brood on it kan.
fast forward,im happy for you girl!
you have my blessings!

yeah my relatives came.

so i auctioned off my old craps to my cousins.
hmmm,i managed to clear off my stuffs through the auction,
and guess what i only have a profit of $1.
idiot cousins..
ahahaha!

sidetrack!
this sim xinyi maisarah!
since she posted my pic and called me chi-ko-pek
i shall seek my revenge and gave her the publicity she needs

but im just not as evil as her
she called me chi-ko..
hmm..
i shall call her something nice
maybe GUNDU would be nice.
she dont even know who david hasselhoff is!
thats show how gundu she is.
ok luh i shall stop here ok!

well since i publicised about you
i might as well pay a tribute to you
but please all that im going to say its straight from my heart!

im thankful that i have special friends like her around me!
she never fails to pull things up when im down!
yeah she will give you the lamest jokes from the whole of the universe just
to make you smile,well i smiled because i just cant take the lameness she has!
it just tickled me!
and i know i hurt you a number of times,
im sorry for that..im a being just like you are!

ok now you people will puke after reading that paragraph!
ahahah!

ps:if you ever post my pic again,remeber i have your superhero pic!

to bro,
maybe its fate,
your path of life is being crafted this way.
you should take it positively,its not a bad thing aniway,
who knows,it may be a blessing in disguise!
im very sure your life will be back as what you wanted.
but whatever the reason is
you have everyone behind you.
you have your lady,sis,me and bloodBRUDD.(only that bloodBRUDD sucks!)
so yeah bro,
we're here for you man!
heads up!

i just got the news!
Israel beat Russia in the european qualifiers!
wohoo,this mean my beloved England is on their way for EURO 2008!
ahaha!
who else save the day,none other my hero! david beckham!
ahaha!
say whatever you want!he saved the day!!!
ok crap!im just expressing my joy spontaneously!

alright this is becoming more of my traditions
when im ending my post.
i will have the tendency to say
HAAPY WAITING FOR MY NEXT POST!

2007-11-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

believe it im back here again blogging!

i know

2007-11-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

im sorry people
i won't be updating this few days
a lot of things is happening
i get to updating
as soon as i can
till then
hope all of you are doing fine
take care!

2007-11-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

things aren't going the way as planned
everything seems to go in haywire
i never want things to go this way

they once said Titus Bramble was one of the worst defender in the EPL,
i resembled him a lot in today's defeat,
only that i'm 10 time worse than him
i do not want to elaborate anymore
somehow,i feel that its time to hang up my boots professionally
i just lost my confidence completely
not only in football but my personal life too

but deep inside me,i still have the torch to carry on with my career
but at the moment,the light is dimming day by day
what heck,i believe this is just parts and parcel of football
one moment you rose from the rest,everybody was hailing you..
the next,you fell flat to the surface of earth,
i dont know whats in store for me
your Almighty,i hope its a good one!

i dont know why i'm feeling this way
for whatever the reason is
i dont want to hurt you
not now,not even ever!
im sending my deepest apology to you
you should not be treated this way

my past should always be my past
i should leave it behind and marched forward
but i guess,
im a weakling who is just not strong enough to do that
i know time may be a vulnerable thing to us
but i just hope you give me plenty of it

ps: i just dont want to hurt you in any case

2007-10-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

i am here again on my fluffiest bed

with the lights off and my air con on!

no im not sleeping..

i just cant sleep just yet!

cause why?

cause i got to let the whole world know something

happy 18th birthday insyirah!!

ahaha!

there you go!

thats insyirah..(not the cute one in green lah gundu!)

my wonderful and greatful gal-fren!

enjoy yourself gal!

so yesterday..

sengkang punggol vs geylang united

there's only one word to describe the match "anticipation."
all of us were running and chasing for every ball for 90 minutes

i meant all the 22 players

despite the rising temperature!

it was as though we were playing football in sahara dessert!

no im not exaggerating this time round

the humidity is really damn bad!

but its still voice down to the scoreline

regardless on how well we played.

we lost 3-1.

i was down and disappointment overcame me.

the chance for us to play at jalan besar stadium minimized

but whatever it is

we have to look forward

we have a mountain to climb for our next match

against the champions,tampines rovers

after the match

bro went to meet erma,

i went to clementi for in's open house

met my ex-classmates zul and najib

and we combed the whole clementi

just to look for in's house..hahaha!

all three of us were cursing and saying whatevernots when

we found out that her house is just beside the mrt station!

ok now you people will say this respectively according to your language

for malay:BODOH SAK!

chinese: PEN TAN!

indian:(errrrrrrrrrr......i shall ask my indian friend tomorrow!)

ahahah!!!!

i was drenched in sweat when i got her house!

eeeeeew!

but hey i still smells nice ayte!

ahaha...(self-confess)

so yeah..

we ate and ate like a hungry ghost

ahaha..

esp najib,living up to his nickname,brother bear!

laughters and chuckles were coming at every corner of the house

i was elated to see in's niece and nephew running around the house

ahaha..i was tempted to kidnap them home arh! (i just exaggerated)

wished the birthday gal

and i left to meet bro!and yeah

thanks to in and family for the sumptous meal!

it was 11pm

bro and i rushed

to the Verse house for another invitation

ahaha!

otw there

he shared with me something.(i aint going to tell you)

cheer up ayte erma!

ahahah!

met kim and the verse

so yah i ate again!!!

like damn

i felt like Norbit now!

gotta lose weight! (as if)

i chauffered myself home by taking a bus home

even though my house is one bustop away!

ahahahahaha!!

look at najib in black!

he think he owns the bed!

with the birthday gal!

look at najib again!

he think he is cute!

time passes by so quickly

like you said in your post

the thought of us being so low-profile is so opaque

ahaha!

it seems the world knew about it

but yeah

we gotta wait and wait right?

so monster,

lets be strong for each other

like i said

the thought of you by my side is unbelieveable!

it doesnt matter how far you may be.

till then

happy waiting again for my next

post!

2007-10-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

wohoo!!!

im blogging again!!

like really again!

hehehe!

ok before i forget........

selamat hari raya

aidilfitri!

i wiil take this opportuinity to

ask for forgiveness..

esp

my family

my monster

my bloodBRUDD

my friends

and also to those who viewed my blog

and also to people who have/had hurt this poor boy

cheyy!

i forgave of all your wrongdoings =)

hee..

today met monster during lunch

she brought kueh raya from her house

whalao,it was stack nicely according to shapes ok!

ahaha!

i was so going yumyum!

and duh!

the kueh or i should say cookies was

super nice and the taste is beyond words

it made me wanna fly after eating it! *ok exaggerating*

the cornflakes..wohoo!!!

ps:monster,can i have more please even if i die of diabeties!

so after sch

i was rushing since bro was at wdl mrt already!

and he was whining la cause i was late *exaggerating err again*

actually i wasnt late actually..

monster was! *oh!she so gonna kill me!*

finally,we arrived!

bro was with erma..

haha..funny sia!

you people should see monster's face!

ahahah!

yeah then the gals went home together

we went for training

whalao,the gals was like i think talking and giggling like they

known each other since when they are just foetus la

dont even bother to sms or something!

ahaha..

so yeah,i had a bad training session man!

i even gave bro a mistimed tackle..

sorry man!

if the ankle is still swelling,you know what to do!

ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

you know and i know!

yeah!thats about it!

im sorry again for making you people wait

patiently for my next post!

yumyumm!

thank you monster!

like i said i want more more more!!

and and,you know that white cookies!

its actually cornflake!

yumyum again!

2007-10-04T11:39:00.000+08:00

helooooooooooooooooooooooo.....
like finally again
theres some smiles when this blog is viewed!
everybody will go.."at last this idiot is updating."
hahaha!

hmmm..what should i blog eyy???
i think i should blog about this monster of mine
i known her for "quite" sometime

*silence*

now you guys will go....
"ohno!new girl again?"
well,i swear to you...
she is different from the
previous one,
it was a mistake that i regretted

im thankful to Him
for letting the path of our life crossed each other

her smiles is meant to spread loves from heaven
her blushes just lighted up the room
her presence is to let me know that i'm special.

monster,i really appreciates for what you done for me
the moments we spent together
are specially encraved both
in my mind and heart.

right now,
we taking things very slowly
we shall not going to rush things
we will just regret it one day
and i dont want that
in fact,theres still a lot to learn about each other eyy!

ok enough!
IM SORRY FOR MAKING ALL OF YOUR GOOSEBUMPS TO RISE UP,
you hairy beast!
ahahahaha

now,i shall update you with my boring daily life
school have been fine
but still im always declaring self-holidays
hehehe!
in fact,im suppose to be in school now
but im still lying on my bed

anw,club trainings have started
it is a bit tough during the fasting month
but it feel wierd without kicking some balls
there is still one last competition for us
then,i will be working hard to get into
the prime league team.
i will start earning money then.......yeah right!

im not going for school training anymore
i shall not elaborate anymore on this matter
period.

hmm...
my personal affairs..
have been tough
alot of things happened
i shall not elaborate on it again
only bloodBRUDD and her knows about it

i thought marriage is bliss,
but i see it as a piss.

this two lines have a meaning behind it
aint telling you guys.

alright then
i ought to go and take a bath
ahaha!

eh wait!
HApPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MY COUSIN,MATHIN!

cheyy,
see how thoughtful am i..
alright2!
happy waiting ayte!!!!

2007-09-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

hello crazy people!
finally,
im updating my blog
hahaha!
thanks for your patience!
ayte,here it goes...

the new semester just began
i repeat again my new class is W25J
so dont ask animore,hahaha!
let me share with you on how my first day of sem 2 was

i was like a late for school,or rather my new classmates were so "kancheong"..haa!
so when i entered the class,most of them were already seated..
and suddenly,the whole class goes "zoooook", their head turned and stared at me like im one alien with only one eye
many questions were running through my mind at this moment..

"did i enter the wrong class?"
"did i zipped up my pants"
"was my hair in a whirlwind"

fortunately,nothing of that shit happened!
haaa,the faci told me to take a seat..
then i started chatting with my new mates
and you know something,
my primary school band mate is in the same class as me..
yeah,lots of stuff we catched up with..
overall,the class was fine..
but it cant beat the bond that i had with m ex-xlassmates..W14R
hhahaaa!

so yeah,i just got home anyway..
went to break-fast with bloodBRUDD
not all of them anyways..
so yeah..

i was from school
and "monster" called me..
she said she was going to the town area too
so i thought of going wit her too since im heading that way too
so yeah shit happened!
bro was very late.!
he got to settle some stuffs
therefore,"monster" had to take the train alone..
i felt bad,man!
ahaha...next time ayte!

so yeah we head to newton food centre!
it was like semi-crowded with peeps
most of them are tourist..haa!
so yeah the uncle who served us is very friendly..
so yeah the usual us..
we were disturbing him and cracking jokes!
ok enough,i dont want to get sued by him..
we were so full till we were so lazy to lift our butts!

so yeah,we decided to chill at esp..
as expected,it was like a ghost town..
im so liking it
it was so peacefull
we chilled and some of us felt asleep
as for me?i was with my lappie..
trying to do my homework,but i never did..
haaa!

we went back home after that
cos' i got school!!!
*sigh*

ps: i felt that giving up my passion for a girl,its never going to happen!
i should have known better,between you and me...it is like putting a cactus and a balloon together.

this is just random pics of what i was up to lately..

my exclassmate birtday,kimmy

see how i disciplined myself during fasting month

this is how gay we were..took pics with mirror!

2007-09-15T12:49:00.000+08:00

i just woke up..
and its almost 1pm
damn!if this goes on everyday
i will be always late for school!
haha!

so yesterday i was woken up by bro's msg
planned for friday prayers{which he rarely goes..haha,kidding}
yeah met up wit him and kim
heads to mosque
haaa!we were late
but still make it though..
then,we played pool
and yeah all hell broke loose!!
we were laughing all the way till the whole building shakes{k bedek}

then we head to cwp
i dont know for what!!!
i think just to kill time la!
of all places we went to COURTS
hahaha...imagine 3 monkeys goes to COURTS
we sat at every sofa that we cann see
haaa

finally,we separated..
cause i need to go home early to get my stuffs
i got sch training.
so yeah SHIT HAPPENED AGAIN!!
i was happily aboarding the bus..
as i tapped my ezlink on the reader
it read

"PAY CASH"

i was like wth!!!!!
i look thru my wallet for coins
like as if im a pirate looking for treasures
and there was sooo many passengers!
unfortunately i dont have a single dime!!!
haha!!
i quickly rushed out from the bus!!
omg!!it was the most extremely embarrasment that i had ever faced!

yeah so,i head for my first ever sch training
i does not want to play for them because
it was total pressure!
in the end,i still go
i was late!
the coach look darn fierce la sey
his training was tough man!
even my dearest club teammate,rajiv sharman a.k.a the black pantat
who have the lungs of a horse said it was damn tiring
haha!
but i felt i should take all this trainngs for my own good

after training met shasha in sch
we chat a bit,then wanted to go back with her
but it didnt happend,
my teammates asked me along to have dinner with us
yeah it was 1045pm,we havent break-fast yet
sorry shasha!

gg out later with bloodBRUDD
tc peeps!
and i badly wanna meet tessa.

2007-09-09T22:07:00.000+08:00

things dont always worked out well huh..?
im so sorry
if i done you wrong
but its better for us to be like this
no more unhappiness,sadness and anger between us
you do your stuff and i do mine
the memories we had will never fade babe
maybe this is life
you can't simply get everything
for now,lets our friendship be the guideline
"what's yours,will always be yours"

sidetracked!
its sad to be apart
im picking myself up slowly each day
bloodBRUDD did their part...{wtf!!!!!..hahaha}
but yeah true
when im with them
all hell broke lose
we were always laughing!
non-stop hits!hahaha..
only god knows what shits we did!

my days are now occupied with a simple routine
woke up in the noon,{yeah noon guys!im not kidding!}
go out to have lunch wit bro,
go for soccer training,
and back to play soccer with bloodBRUDD till late night!!
yeah..it may be boring stuff to ya all!!!
but not me....

one serious shit just hit me straight to the face!
story goes,
at the beginning of the last semester
i was in class,and my group table was filled with stuff
and so i put my lappie on my lap..
then,i was looking or i should say staring at this girl thru the glass window
she wasnt hot all,seriously!but i dont know i continued staring at her...
THEN!!SHIT HAPPENED AGAIN!!!!!!!
my classmate,matthew came from behind and tickled me!!!
due to my sensitive-to-tickle ability,
i jerked and my lappie dropped to the floor!!!!!!!
my mouth was wide opened!so was matt's....
i picked it up and the LCD SCREEN CRACKED AND SO WAS MY HEART!!!!
yeah..so matt felt the guilt
he badly want to pay for it
but i dont blame him...i dont wanna cause any inconvenience
to anyone..{see how sweet am i...huh?}
so since that day i loan the sch lappie
and the lappie that they loan is like the first computer that bill gate ever produced!
but i just have to make do with it

fastward!
i send my lappie for repair
so i called the operator
they ask for my particulars and all
then.......

operator: "Sir,the repair will cost $18"

*seriously,that was what i heard*

me: "ouh..$18?cool!"
operator: "no sir!its $1018,my bad..."

at this tense moment
i was whisper-ly cursing her!
i didnt know it will cost this much!!!
so yeah,im not going to stupidly paid for it,u idiot!
now i will be handicapped again in sch without lappie!

hahaha!
this post is so random..
happy waiting for my next post!
and my friendster got a big problem!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-29T09:05:00.000+08:00

you said you love me?

i know that

you said you are lost?

i will do anything in the world to be your map

you said you feel low?

i will or should i say i DID anything to make you feel sky-high

but when you said im not there when you need me most

sadly enough,i will have to swallow that.

but i thought you would understand my commitments

when im there for you

you said you dont need me

and

when im not there for you

your mad cause you need me

ask the world about this?

they would say

"treasure the times that you have with your loved ones"

we don't

nobody is playing prank on you

its just me

you wonder y am i like this?

cause i felt why should i treat you good

when im not appreciated

i feel like one of the toys in the

movie.Toy Story 2

being chucked away when you dont need them

i know my words are hurtful in this post

im sorry

i just have to let it out after bottling it for ages

i came to a realisation

you are someone very different

in hella good ways

i realised not only you but US

should treasure the moments that we have

lately,we have been treating each other nastily

im faithfully sorry on my part

and i really meant it

i would never want to see us bicker anymore

i know saying sorry is just not enough

i will mend it for you

im sorry

nurhaszirahhaszahar

2007-08-25T11:54:00.001+08:00

2007-08-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

i look like idiot

2007-07-19T13:47:00.000+08:00

life was not suppose to be this way,
i thought all of us is going to be very happy
when you are both together..

i miss those days when we were young
we used to ride our bicycle around the neighbourhood
i felt for you when you got whacked by mom for bringing me to go cycling
i will never forget when we used to cry together...
i depended on you and likewise for you....
although we quarreled,i know deep inside you love me...

years zoom passed...
we were not the same....
you and your life...me?i was everywhere....
i really hope we can be lik others....

everybody is affected by you...
everybody want to be happy for you...
but please...dont hurt us!

i love you so much!!

and no!
im nt talking about the girl of my life...
its someone that should be close to me....

2007-07-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

hey!!
i guess i will blog once a week..haha
sorry to keep you guys waiting..
alrite,i will blog about yesterday..

started the day,waking up at blardy 6 in the morning..
as usual,ridzwan was late...
the rest of the team already left us for chinese garden
we were suppose to have a olympic run where all the coe u-18 football clubs boys will run for charity..
ok heres the story,i thought the team were suppose to meet at 730..
me and ridzwan reached at 735...
and you know what,my other teammates told us that coach was blardy angry..
i told them why must he get so worked out, only a few minutes late what...hahaha
they gave me a middle-finger-kind of look and said we were suppose to meet at 7 am!
hahahaha....me and wan got the wrong info!!!!
slenge seh...
and ya,didnt i tell you that it was suppose to be a run?
well,nobody did the running...we all walked the entire chinese garden very slowly like as if there is a funeral procession!hahaha...its blardy hot too!

we head to jurong point..for breakfast
then,we went to ite bedok for a match...
our opponent were Singapore Cricket Club...
my primary school friend,alif is in the team...
its been ages since i saw him..

during the first half,i simply cant bring myself to focus on the game...
i think because of the lack of sleep...i was so lethargic...
and ya,the refree was another think that made me distracted..
he will blow his whistle for every little things...damn him...
and ya we were trailing 1-0 at half time...
during,half time talk...
coach,knock some sense to the team....
he also changed the formation...
during the second half,coach make some substitutions
and yeah ridzwan and sham came in..
they add some flavour on the attacks....
and yeah sham and afiq got their name on the scoresheet..
we were under attacked too but as i was playing the centre back,
i did some crunching tackles and stopped their attack..wohoo!mcm paham..
guess,mr inspiration is in the house la,me!hahaha...no huh?
yeah we won the game 2-1...
this match also was a tribute to my captain and a great soccer buddy,oswind.
because he will be leaving us for the national team..gonna miss his stupid jokes..nyiahaaaa!

after the match,
coach blanja us nasi briyani!
thanks coach!

yeah..went back hm
den went to catch a midnite movie with wan,kim and aizz..without ismail,damn!
haha..we watched transformer!they watched it quite a number of times..mine was the first!
and and!u know what!i slept halfwway thru the show!hahaha...
but i tell you..the movie is blardy awesome and cool!

ok then!
i got to go!
i also dnnoe where!
take care!
love you guys!
huh!
bye!

2007-07-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

wow.............

its been ages since i last update....kay bedek

sorry to peeps who were waiting for me to update....hahaha

so start off with what i did today...

i woke up by an annoying msg...it was a sms from my bloodbro,ridzwan

hahaha,he wanted to know what time to meet...

o ya i forgot,we were suppose to have a match against woodland wellington under-18

i told him to meet at my house at 1200

but this gundu came at 1145,so i haven mandi la...and he was complaining like a girl..yangan eh?

hahaha,after getting ready,we set off

while on our way to the match ground..............

ridzwan:"dude,kau da dapat msg?"

me:"msg ape sak?"

then he showed me a sms....

sms:"Today game cancel due to bad pitch condition...coach azli"

i was like damn!

hahaha...now then he msg when we all were on our way....

slenge sak...

so we decided to meet up with the rest of the team and head to vivocity

koz some of them want to get some adidas stuff...

omg and we all went there with our club polo tee...

and with the crazy teammates...so paisey sia

and while in the adidas shop....

i saw her and a guy...hahaha..

i saw them twice in a couple of days...aiyooo so sway sia....

nvm...wish them luck aniwaes........

after that me and wan left the team

koz we going to send another bloodbro,ismail,to australia..

he is going there for 3 weeks for some student exchange tingy

so the rest of the bloodBRUDD also came down...

we chatted and burst into laughter like a million times..

its kind a norm tinks to us actually...

when its time for him to go...all the sad emotions can be seen int the faces present

we all hugged and wish him luck...kata bloodBRUDD dokz..hahahaa

its an emotional thing but we were all cracking up jokes at the same time...

damn!gonna miss him....its 3 blardy weeks la sey...

after that we head to harbourfront banquet where wan's mum is working...

yeah go makan der...thank you makcik!

wan catched up wit his family for a while....

after that we took 963 back to woodlands...

the journey is super duper long and the aircon was not fuctionin well!

i felt roasted in that bus...kay bedek again...

but its so warm la....

after a long day...i went hm

must take care of my mum...she was unwell actually...

the rest of the bloodBRUDD i think they went to catch a midnite movie or something..

hahaha...see im a good boy...yeah rite...

and im suppose to go to my ''sis'' housewarming but i was held up....im so sorry..

i felt soo bad...nvm i will go to your new house one day...and cuzzie,sorry hor i cudnt make it!

and ya,i forgot to tell you guys...bloodBRUDD is my besties for life!

we consist of Ridzwan,ismail,ve,hakim and me!..

i will tell you more of them on my future entries.......

ayte...

thats all folk...

take care!

It is starting........

2007-06-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

ayte...
today was a full with unfortunate events............

after getting ready for school
i found out my ppd was empty,damn!
recently,i will go to sch with azh...
but since our ppd were empty..we were unable to contact each other
therefore,we didnt meet for sch...i am really sorry babe!
but i swear,i waited for you..hahahahaha!

upon reaching sch,i rent a laptop...
then came UT(understanding test)....
as i was doing my test...then the most irony thing happened!
the laptop just went *poom*..it shuts down!
my jaw was like dropped down to floor...k bedek!
n ya all my notes was in the laptop,in the end..i have to do on a worksheet
without my notes and formulas!therefore,i created my own formulas which i know
it gonna get me an F..

after sch..
i went to play futsal in sch as i have no club training...
i went there alone...it was my first time playing there...
i found out all the boys have their own teams..and im all alone!
then,one of the team need one more player,they invited me to play..
i felt so honoured!but then...irony strikes back!
they told me to play goalkeeper..i was like rarely plays goalkeeper before..hahaha
after savings some shots..sh*t really does happen!a shot came from nowhere and it hit
right at my family jewels!omg the feeling was excruciating,man!
i acted cool and carry on with the games as there are gals around!
today,i conclude i will never play goalkeeper ever again!period!

wow..today's entry is super loong!
announcement:Geylang United u-18 vs Sengkang Punggol u-18 29/6
wish me luck!
take care people!

2007-06-26T11:09:00.000+08:00

Alright this is the officially first post im writting......

and you know what...
i have a lot of shi*t in my life actually...
so bear with me ayte...

at the moment,
i really thinks blogging is a gay thing to do
but after many peer influence,
i guess its ok to be gay sometime...hahaha

ok...
in the next few post
i will be writting more on my life..
till then...
thankz again for reading my blog!

GAYSHIT!

2007-06-25T13:11:00.000+08:00

HI.........THIS IS SOOOOO GAY!